T.j and I.....

Sheesh.. What a crazy year this has turned out to be!!LOL!! I mean yes I do have my ups and downs but who doesn't right!?!? Well as far as my life as a mother...I can honestly say that it is tough but at the same time its so worth it. I feel like this is a stressful time of the year. My kids ask me for the materialistic things in this world that society and the media tells them they need to be happy while on the other hand I provide them with what I feel is more important, such as, a roof to put over their heads, food on the table and a few gifts under the tree and yet they don't think I have done anything. Uugghhhhh.... T.j and I have been bumping heads for awhile now because he feels like I'm always at work and yet I am always broke(in his eyes!LOL!). I feel like I'm going to punch him square in the face some days because I feel there are days were I am extremely tired due to lack of sleep from having to wake up at 4:30 every morning and sleeping between 10pm and midnight most nights. Its not easy at all. Then he had the nerve to look at me and tell me that he's just going to ask Santa and his dad for things he wants during the year because I'm busy with work and I don't ever have money to spend on him. I keep trying to see things from his perspective but I just cant. I mean yes I work but I also take my boys out here and there when its convenient. I'm not rich nor do I care to be, however it just shocks me to know that poor kids can act so spoiled!!LMBO!! I was not rich growing up but I have had some of the greatest times in my life without money.

So this Christmas Toa's family found an idea that they thought would be a great way to save money and yet keep the kids happy. The kids have to write three things that they will get for Christmas and this is T.j's answers:
1. His want: XBOX 360
2.His Needs: Clothes
3.His Spiritual Gift: (He didn't answer this one!?!?)

I was like, WTH!?!?!.. His "want" gift is like an arm and a leg!!LOL!! I was like maybe we can do that but not now! Toa and I had bought him his needs and other little gifts that I can afford without all the hassle or bending over backwards. Well I haven't really wrapped anything this year so yes my kids kind of saw what they were getting already. Then I noticed that although we did get them gifts, T.j wasn't to excited about Christmas as he normally would be because he knew what he was getting already. So I explained to him the true meaning of Christmas. That's its not about what gifts he's getting or how much gifts he gets, its about JESUS and SERVICE and remembering that Jesus did service us by Atoning for all our sins.

Although T.j thinks he isn't getting much this Christmas, I told him there are people who don't have anything at all.

We use to always go down town because of my previous job and T.j would always look at the shelter and I not caring to explain to him what it was just allowed him to think that it was a little park. The point is that I explained to him why there were always people crowding around the little park and what the building really was. He started to get teary eyed and asked me why the homeless kids parents didn't want to work like me so that they can give there kids what he has. I told him that I'm sure there parents are trying but its not easy, hence me being at work all the time. He apologized to me for his behavior and told me that he wants to share his gifts with the kids at the shelter.

I was so proud of him and his change. I do notice he is trying harder to not argue so much with me. He has also told me that he doesn't need anything this year. Well last week my son used his school star bucks that he was saving for a camera from there school store to buy his dad and brother as well as myself a gift for Christmas.

Since my checks have been pretty good lately I have gone out and bought my son his "Want" gift. I know he is going to be so happy. He has no clue that I have it. I wrapped it right away and stuck it far behind our tree!! I am so proud to have been a mother to a perfect child!! At times he might not act perfect but in my eyes he will always be!!:) Well until my lunch that's all for now!!!