She is gone and it feels different!!!:(

So as some of you might already know I have had my little sister Tulai spend the whole summer here with me. She lives in Herriman which is like 35 minutes away but it feels so much longer!! Anywho it was unexpected for her to stay with me but I didn't really have a choice. I was looking forward to the day she went home. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death but me and her never saw eye to eye. She was a normal teen that had the whole attitude thing going on. Then I felt bad that she was stuck home all day that when she did ask to hang with her friends I allowed it, of course after she called my dad. Well long story short she didn't care to listen to me when I asked her to come home by a certain time... Uugghhh.... It was so hard to control my temper with her. Every thing change when I started going back to church cause she knows so much about the church. So i started looking to her when I had question or needed advise about the church and I am so grateful I had her here with me. I was felt like when I was mad and about to blow up on someone she would just walk by or just give me a look that just made me control myself. She use to always preach to us growing up and we would call her a molly Mormon and brush her off, I know its sad but I love her so much more for staying so strong in the church in this day and age. Once we over came our differences we had noticed that we had alot more in common and realized that we really need one another. She was so much fun to have around, I mean we still had our days but for the most part I loved having her here. She is something else I tell you!!!LOL!!
Having her here with me for the whole summer was a challenge, but it was also a blessing. I never thought that I would need to look to her for answers, but I did!! No matter what our differences were she would always be there to help me out even when I brush her off. When it got closer for the day I had to take her home I had a long talk with her and it was just nice to get to know her on a different level!!

Now that she is back home, I really miss her!! I miss all the help she gave me around my house and especially with my boys!! She wasn't the happiest person to live with but she wasn't negative either. She was just a very emotional, logical, deep thinking kind of teen. Mostly serious though. So yeah, I will be the one to wants to leave the house and do something, while Lai was the type who wanted to stay home and kick it.
Since this post was about Tulai I thought I could end it with a few poems that she wrote that I thought was cute!! She loves literature and journalism so yes writing is her passion.

The kinda girl that..
makes you think that she has super powers,
the way she talks, you could listen for hours

makes you feel empty when she leaves your side,
with her, nothing gets in your way, not even your pride

makes you miss her when you hear a certain song,
if lovin her is right, you don't wanna be in the wrong

makes your past relationships seem like childs play,
she has you thinking serious bout that special day

makes you wanna sit at home and wait for her call,
If her secrets were a masquerade ball ,you'd be the first to see her mask fall.

makes you wonder if she left you would you die?
her presence captivates you, its something easier to say than imply

makes you question your ability to be on your own,
without her, you'd be nothing, even if you are grown

makes you look to sky at night and wonder how this exists
she makes your day brighter,joyous, as if your personal optimist

makes you pull out a ring and get down on a knee,
you fell in love, so true, so right, so real, its plain to see

makes you cut your heart in two,
she takes one half and leaves her heart with you.

Escape

The rush of Adrenaline seeps steady through a vain
To create the illusion of being fine, when in deep pain
crushed at the sight,cringe at the sound
staring honestly,nothing is seen so profound
To let go would be life and relief
still to hold on hoping a reasoning of our belief
a charlatan of peace and an accomplice to hostility
what motive makes you capable and gives such naiive abilities?
hold captive if you may but the anguish will stay
set free and you will succeed a joyous day
such a surreal ending is in plain sight
It is up to you to decide what is right.