So I have been making alot of life changing decisions and going through alot of life changes and it has made me a whole new person!! I mean I am proud of myself for what I am becoming but it has been taking a toll on those around me!!:( I know that the changes I am making is for the best even if I cant see it yet!!:) That's why I need to strengthen my faith and work for the blessings!!:) It is a tough time right now for me and I admit it but I am looking at my family now and it just seems like its the right thing to do even if those around me don't notice it right away!! I am so grateful for my calling because it has made me see things in a different prospective. I mean I have always known that the church was true and I still lived my life in ways that I know the church would not approve of, but i just figured there is always repentance. Then I got this calling and it made me realize that I need to change my out look on life and look at whats really important to me. So my family is feeling a bit overwhelmed with my changes but I hope they realize that it is for the best.
-SOME OF MY CHANGES-
1.I started by having my kids read a chapter a day of the kids version of the old testaments!! I love it cause it really breaks down what each chapter is about, so that way my kids understand what they are reading and I learn with them!!LOL!!
2.We have always done family prayers but now I do it every morning and night!!
3.I have also made my boys room G rated..... What I mean by this is I went through all his x-box and PlayStation games and through out all the games that had violence!! I mean games I didn't even realize they had like GTA (grand theft auto) I hate that game and I don't even know where he got it. So if you know kids and how hard it is to get them off the video games then you can imagine why my oldest was having a pretty tough day yesterday.
4.I have also quit my job so that I could have more time to do what I feel is important and that is to be with my kids more and be able to teach them more. I don't mind working part time but full time isn't for me anymore. I hated leaving to work with my baby boy crying and begging me to stay home every night just to disappoint him and leave anyway... uugghhh... I'm glad that I don't have to deal with that anymore!! Now I can teach them how important the church and its standards are!! I usually tell them that all the time but then on Sunday I would allow them to sleep in with me and not go:( So yes we will try our best!! You know what they say, the best way to teach your kids is through example!! I'm not trying to preach or act like I am perfect, I just wanted you guys to know that through this calling it has helped me strengthen my faith and my family.
My hubby is having a hard time adjusting to these changes as well. I just hope he knows how strong my love for him is and understands that I wouldn't have done it if I didn't think it was necessary. I too have been stressed and over whelmed with everything that I didn't think I could function, but as time passed I've seen the important things more clearer and I made decisions based on that. So that is basically what has been going on with me. I know it is alot of change in a little bit of time but for some reason I feel the urge to do these things and I'm okay with my decision and I accept responsibilities. I do love my family so much and I can only pray that they can understand why I'm doing all this instead of thinking I am being selfish!!:)
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I don't think your selfish at all sis! And I'm so proud of all the decisions you have made thus far! Just keep doing what your doing, and everything will fall into place! Your such a great example to me, and I'm so glad your noticing the blessings out all that is going on right now. I love you and just do as you said, keep the faith! Love you!
I am so teary eyed reading your post Klarah. I cannot believe all the changes you have made! And you did it all by yourself with the help of our Heavenly Father! I am so PROUD of you, and I love your scripture at the top...I know your family cannot see, how much your changes are gonna benefit them all, in the long run! I love you and I just knew your calling would help you grow closer to your Father in Heaven! Doesn't it feel great?!
Klarah the urge you are feeling is the Holy Ghost. I'm happy that you finally listened to His promptings. Remember that you are a daughter of God and He loves you. Believe in yourself Klarah as he believes in you to lead and guide your family at this time. I know its such a hard time right now, so when it gets to hard to stand, KNEEL. I love you Klarah and I'm so proud of you for choosing your family full-time over a job full-time. Congratulations on a whole new you!! The only way to go from here is up!! Good luck.
YOU GO GIRL!! I'm so proud of you. :] I got all teary eyed reading this too. You're such a good example. Isn't YW's a great calling? I LOVE IT! I'm working on alot too. It's tough.
Klarah you are such an inspiration!! That's awesome and Im very happy for you.
There's a reason for everything and the hardest part is not being able to see the results through all the tough times..but when those blessings come to you it all makes sense and is well worth the fight!! Your amazing girl!!
Thank you ladies for your inputs!! I just wanted you all to know that I have always looked up to you all because you all have already had the faith that I am just now finding!!:) I am just grateful that I have such suportive family and friends!! i love you all!! I am also grateful for my calling!! I am still trying to finds ways to not be so strict now but to still have fun with my family!!!
Hi Lala (I'm sorry, do you even go by that name anymore...) I wanted to share my thoughts along with all your family and friends. When we have been touched by the spirit, like you have been, we have the need to be better and do better. I'm so touched by your testimony, your willingness to follow the commmandments of our Heavenly Father, and your courage to change your life. Those changes you've already made are inspiring and I know our Heavenly Father loves you "coming" unto Him. As a young mother, years ago, I found myself faced with some of the very same decisions and although some are EXTREMELY hard adjustment... righteousness prevails - so keep on keeping on!! Like it's always said, "...never said it would be easy, but...said it would be worth it." Thank you for that spiritual moment, you have inspired me! Love you!!
I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR CHANGES...IM SURE IT'LL ALL WORK OUT FOR THE BEST FOR YOU...AND THE FAMILY...LOL...I HAVE SOME LIFE CHANGES TO...1. I WANT TO CUT MY EARS OFF AND GIVE THEM TO MOM...CAUSE SHES NEVER DONE YELLING AT ME...2. I WANT TO INVENT AN INVISIBILITY COAT, SO I CAN WEAR IT...AND 3. WEAR THE COAT I INVENTED...LOL...AND THANKS FOR DOING MY PAGE I LOVEEEEEEEEEE IT...YAY!?!
Thanks Janice!! I knew I could depend on you to drop in!! I knew the Bishops daughter wouldnt let me down!!LOL!! Love ya!! Oh and Ana your welcome!! I miss and love ya heaps!!
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