This Week Has Started Off Bad.....

So the last few days have not been to good for me. I am the type of person that usually puts others before me as well as worrying to much about what they think of me. Uuggghhhhh ... It's that time of the month for me and I hate, so yes I am very moody, emotional and dramatic!!( So keep that in mind as I continue on with my drama!!LOL!!) Monday was okay, could have been better but wasn't!!!LOL! On Tuesday my son had a school program which I had to miss due to work related issues so I was pretty down about that. I felt like I miss everything he does because of work, on top of that I worked late last night just to wake up early this morning and go back to work again. At this point I was not in the mood to deal with anyone nor any issues they had. This morning as I was looking for my car keys I saw my phone light blinking red at like 6am this morning. When I checked it, it was a text from my mom that said how much she appreciated me and how much she loves me!! I was like I'll call her later because I was running late, then as I continued reading, I saw that she had tried to call me but I didn't answer so she text to let me know that my Grampa Frost had just passed. I called her back immediately to make sure she was okay!! I love my Grampa but when we were growing up he seemed to favor my older sister Maria more then Sheena and I and we thought that he hated us!!LOL!! Until we got older and saw him again and he would let us know how proud he was with the way we turned out!! Of course I'm sad he is gone, but its also harder to hear your mom & sister crying traumatically non stop. I couldn't help but to join them just thinking about how I would feel if my dad where to leave me, what would I do!?!?..
The last time I saw him he told me how adorable my kids were and how beautiful I turned out to be, like I disappointed him when I was younger!!LOL!! Just kidding but he kept telling me that as I grew up I blossomed and calmed down alot!!LOL!! He said I was hard headed and crazy when I was younger. He said the love I showed to my kids was a wonderful thing and don't forget family first!!! I guess when I was younger I didn't know that even though he chased Sheena and I around with the golf clubs and a 1986 t.v remote, which mind you were freakin fat, that he did it out of love for us and because he was mad that we kept double teaming on Maria, who is his baby girl!!!
When I heard he passed I didn't know what to think. I was sad because I feel like I could have visited him more but I assumed he would still be here. I then thought about my dad and what I would be feeling had I been in my moms shoes!! I was not close to my Grampa but I did grow up with him every summer we spent with my mom and he changed as time changed!! I thought he hated us and as I got older he started to be more humble in his ways. He always told me how I should be strong and my family will follow!! I never got it and I still don't but one day I'm sure it will occur to me.........
I just wanted to share a few stories about my grampa that I always look back at now and laugh at!!!
Once when I was like 7 yrs old my grampa had to baby sit me and my sisters. Maria and I just got in a fight, annnoyed, he stopped us and asked if we wanted to go to the store to buy candies!?!! Excited, we jumped for joy and I went and sat in the car. A few mins later I saw the car moving and started to panic when I got up to look at my surroundings I notice I wasn't moving but the car next to me was,with my sisters and grampa in it!! Yes he left me to teach me a lesson, that I should respect my elders!?!? I don't see what leaving me had to do with it but it was a lesson and they still brought candy back for me!!LOL!!
There was another time where Sheena and I watched Maria lay out our gold fishes we just won from the carnival , for her cats to eat. Upset, Sheena and I started collecting all her kittens and told her we were going to put it in the fridge and she ran cried to my grampa. To be fair he made us put her kittens down and told her not to feed our fishes to her cat. By the time that was done one of our fishs had been eaten and the other two were barelyl alive so we started to cry and kept being mean to Maria until she cried again, so my grampa made her flush our fishes down the toilet as chased us around the house with his huge remote, that was until my dad got home, then he disappeared and I didn't see him for the rest of the day!!!LOL!!
Yes he has done good things as well but growing up all I've noticed were the bad!!LOL!!
I do love my grampa Frost and I know that he is in a better place now, I just am sad for those that he left behind that dont realize it. I don't think that it occurs to them just yet that he is in a better place, only that he is gone!! I just look at it this way, although we are all in mourning, my grandma has been waiting for him for so long and now he's truly home!!! I love my family and I know that everything happens for a reason!!! We will all get through this together!! Well I'm tired now so until next time......................

♥kL@R@H
a.k.a Lala